These are supposedly 25 questions that no one would ever think to ask:

o1. When you look at yourself in the mirror, what's the first thing you look at? It depends....usually my hair

o2. How much cash do you have on you? $170

o3. What's a word that rhymes with "TEST"? nest

o4. Favorite plant?: I love white carnations....

o5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone?: Michael

o6. What is your main ring tone on your phone?: ...bell #2

o7. What shirt are you wearing?: Gray guinea T

o8. Do you "label" yourself, could you?: I change day to day

o9. Name brand of your shoes currently wearing?: Refuge sandals

1o. Bright or Dark Room?: Dark

11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you? Saras cool

12. Ever "spilled the beans"?: Yep

13. What were you doing at midnight last night? Breaking up with Michael and calling Sam to say Happy Birthday

14. What did your last text message you received on your cell phone say? "I love you which is why I am so paranoid"

15. Do you ever click on "Pop Ups" or Banners?not usually

16. What's a saying that you say a lot? oh man or jesus christ

17. Who told you they loved you last? Michael

18. Last furry thing you touched?:Uh....my kitty

19. How many hours a week do you work?: none yet

2o. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed?: 2

21. Favorite age you have been so far? like 4

22. Your worst enemy?: Elise :-)

23. What is your current desktop picture?: A collage of Michael and I

24. What was the last thing you said to someone?:um okay

25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to change a major regret?: Change a regret

I read Laura's livejournal and I've been wanting to write for a while. What to write is the real question at hand. All the thoughts running through my head? Michael. I miss him and I wish he was here more often. I wish he were closer like everyone else is...And I'm wearing his sweatshirt and watch and I feel a little closer to him....and I want to be with him...so much...more than anyone could possibly imagine.
And It was great seeing him last night but I always feel second best when I'm with him at parties. Because he pays attention to everyone except me...But when I see Laura and Mitch, they never separate...and no matter what she does to him, he's still attached to her like he's chained.
Maybe I'm just not good enough anymore...and she has something I don't...or maybe Michael is realizing he doesn't really need me...
I need friends. People who I can actually hang out with. Cause no one is around...ever.
I just feel so alone.

So...still puppy hunting for my puppy....
7 days to Rent
8 days to my birthday
10 days to my party :-)
Exciting
Went to a shelter yesterday and found nothing. Went to Shake-a-paw and found the cutest puppies that I'll never get...
Went to Ulta and got some eyeliner which made me happy :-)
Made my own fruit and walnut salad with Beth
Hung out with Ben making up songs for a while
Pretty good day :-)
Bored so I'll attempt this

~The (popular shows of) Broadway Survey~

~Les Miserables~
favorite character: eponine
favorite song/scene: On My Own
which song always gets you:On my Own
favorite chord or part of song:The part in On My Own that goes "still i say, theres a way for us"
who would you play: eponine
overall opinion:I saw this at CHS, but I would have loved to have seen it on Broadway...

~Phantom of the Opera~
favorite character:Christine's Best Friend
favorite song/scene:All I Ask Of You or Angel Of Music
which song always gets you:Music Of The Night
favorite chord or part of song:I don't know...I have to start listening to it again
who would you play:Probably Madame G...knowing all the secrets and such
overall opinion: Magnificent

~Aida~
favorite character:The Princess
favorite song/scene: Strongest Suit or Written In the Stars
which song always gets you: Dance Of The Robe
favorite chord or part of song: i dont know
who would you play:Probably the Princess
overall opinion: I wish I had seen it....

~Wicked~
favorite character: elphaba
favorite song/scene: Defying Gravity
which song always gets you: For Good
favorite chord or part of song:"Nobody in all of oz, no wizard that there is or was is ever going to bring me down"
who would you play: elphaba
overall opinion: It's addicting and I need to see all these plays

~Rent~
favorite character: Mark
favorite song/scene: Halloween or One Song Glory
favorite chord or part of song: "One great song before I..."
which song always gets you: Your Eyes
who would you play: Mimi
overall opinion: MUST SEE!

~Chicago~
favorite character:Mama Morton
favorite song/scene: Cell Block Tango or When You're Good To Mama
which song always gets you:Mister Cellophane
favorite chord or part of song:Everyone gets noticed, now and then,unless, of course, that person it should be invisible, inconsequential me!
who would you play: velma
overall opinion: Loved the movie, never saw the play

~Hairspray~
favorite character:
favorite song/scene:
which song always gets you:
favorite chord or part of song:
who would you play:
overall opinion:

~Avenue Q~
favorite character: Rod
favorite song/scene:What do you do with a B.A. In English
which song always gets you:Fantasies come True
favorite chord or part of song:When Kate sings "Thats what I'm gonna do" in Fantasies come true or when Princeton sings "Good Night Saigon" in Mix Tape
who would you play:No Idea
overall opinion: Great play, I would definitely see it again

What Is...
your favorite play?Rent
your least favorite play?I don't know....
your opinion of cats? Never saw it, never wanted to
the most recurring theme of broadway? Love conquers all (in Faye's words, for lack of better explanation)
the funniest show you've seen? Dirty Rotten Scoundrels
the show with the best plot? Phantom or Aida
music?Aida or Phantom..it depends what you're looking for
characters? I don't know...
scenery?Rent had nice scenery....simple yet good

Movies I've seen...
(x)=seen
(/)=want to see

1 (x) Napoleon Dynamite
2 (x) Saw
3 (x) White Noise
4 (/) White Oleander
5 ( ) Anger Management
6 ( ) 50 First Dates
7 ( ) Jason X
8 ( ) Scream
9 ( ) Scream 2
10 ( ) Scream 3
11 (x) Scary Movie
12 (x) Scary Movie 2
13 (/) Scary Movie 3
14 (x) American Pie
15 ( ) American Pie 2
16 ( ) American Wedding
17 (x) Harry Potter
18 (x) Harry Potter 2
19 (/) Harry Potter 3
20 ( ) Resident Evil I
21 ( ) Resident Evil 2 (aka RE: Apocalypse)
22 ( ) The Wedding Singer
23 (x) Little Black Book
24 (x) The Village
25 (x) Donnie Darko
26 (x) Lilo & Stitch
27 (x) Finding Nemo
28 (x) Finding Neverland
29 (x) 13 Ghosts
30 ( ) Signs
31 (x) The Grinch
32 ( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre (The Original)
33 ( ) White Chicks
34 (x) Butterfly Effect
35 ( ) Thirteen going on 30
36 ( ) I Robot
37 (x) Dodgeball
38 ( ) Universal Soldier
39 (x) A Series Of Unfortunate Events
40 ( ) Along Came A Spider
41 ( ) Deep Impact
42 (x) Kingpin
43 ( ) Never Been Kissed
44 ( ) Meet The Parents
45 ( ) Meet The Fockers
46 ( ) Eight Crazy Nights
47 ( ) A Cinderella Story
48 ( ) The Terminal
49 (x) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
50 (x) Passport to Paris
51 (x) Dumb & Dumber
52 ( ) Dumb & Dumberer
53 (x) Final Destination
54 ( ) Final Destination 2
55 ( ) Halloween
56 ( ) Halloween 2
57 ( ) Halloween 3
58 ( ) Halloween 4
59 ( ) Halloween 5
60 ( ) H20
61 ( ) Halloween: the Resurrection
62 (x) The Ring
63 (x) The Ring 2
64 (x) Harold & Kumar Go to White Castle
65 (x) Practical Magic
66 (x) Chicago
67 ( ) Ghost Ship
68 ( ) From Hell
69 (/) Team America World Police
70 ( ) Hellboy
71 (x) Secret Window
72 (x) I Am Sam
73 ( ) The Whole Nine Yards
74 ( ) The Day After Tomorrow
75 (x) Child's Play
76 (x) Bride of Chucky
77 (x) Ten Things I Hate About You
78 ( ) Just Married
79 (x) Gothika
80 ( ) A Nightmare on Elm Street
81 (x) Sixteen Candles
82 ( ) Bad Boys 2
83 (x) Joy Ride
84 ( ) Seven
85 ( ) Oceans Eleven
86 ( ) Oceans Twelve
87 (x) Identity
88 ( ) Lone Star
89 (x) Bedazzled
90 ( ) Predator
91 ( ) Predator II
92 (x) Independence Day
93 ( ) Cujo
94 ( ) A Bronx Tale
95 ( ) Darkness Falls
96 ( ) Christine
97 ( ) ET
98 ( ) Children of the Corn
99 ( ) My Boss' Daughter
100 ( ) Maid in Manhattan
101 ( ) Frailty
102 ( ) Best bet
103 ( ) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
104 ( ) She's All That
105 ( ) Calendar Girls
106 ( ) Sideways
107 (x) Mars Attacks
108 ( ) Event Horizon
109 ( ) Ever After
110 (x) Forrest Gump
112 ( ) Big Trouble in Little China
113 (x) X-Men
114 ( ) X-Men 2
115 (x) Jeepers Creepers
116 (x) Jeepers Creepers 2
117 ( ) Catch Me If You Can
118 (x) The Others
119 (x) Freaky Friday
120 ( ) Reign of Fire
121 ( ) Man on Fire
122 ( ) Braveheart
123 (x) Cruel Intentions
124 ( ) The Hot Chick
125 ( ) Swimfan
126 ( ) Miracle
127 ( ) Friday Night Lights
128 (x) Old School
129 ( ) Ray
130 (x) The Notebook
131 (x) K-Pax
132 (x) Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
133 (x) Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
134 ( ) Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
135 (x) A Walk to Remember
136 ( ) Sweet Home Alabama
137 (x) Moulin Rouge
138 ( ) Boogeyman
139 (/) Hitch
140 ( ) Back Door Sluts 9
141 ( ) The Fifth Element
142 ( ) Star Wars episode I
143 ( ) Star Wars episode II
144 (x) Star Wars episode IV
145 (Part) Star Wars episode V
146 ( ) Star Wars episode VI
147 ( ) Troop Beverly Hills
148 ( ) Swimming with Sharks
149 ( ) Trainspotting
150 ( ) People under the stairs
151 ( ) Blue Velvet
152 ( ) Sound of Music
153 ( ) Parent Trap - either version
154 ( ) The Burbs
155 (x) SLC Punk
156 ( ) Meet Joe Black
157 ( ) Wild Girls
158 (/) A Clockwork Orange
159 ( ) The Order
160 (x) Spiderman
161 (x) Spiderman 2
162 (x) Amelie
163 ( ) Mean Girls
164 ( ) Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen
165 (x) Shrek
166 (x) Shrek 2
167 (x) The Incredibles
168 ( ) Collateral
169 (x) The Fast & The Furious
170 ( ) 2 Fast 2 Furious
171 ( ) Sky Captain & The World of Tomorrow
172 (/) Closer
173 (x) The Sixth Sense
174 ( ) Artificial intelligence
175 (half of it) Love Actually
176 ( ) The Sweetest Thing
177 ( ) Shutter
178 ( ) Ella Enchanted
179 (x) Princess diaries 1
180 (x) Princess diaries 2
181 (x) Breakfast Club
182 ( ) October Sky
183 (x) Remember the Titans
184 (x) Titanic
185 ( ) Boondock Saints
186 ( ) American History X
187 ( ) Fight Club
188 ( ) Heavenly creatures
189 ( ) Stealing Beauty
190 ( ) Like Water For Chocolate
191 ( ) Powwow Highway
192 ( ) Secretary
193 ( ) But I'm A Cheerleader
194 (/) I <3 Huckabees
195 ( ) Ripley's Game
196 ( ) Coffee And Cigarettes
197 ( ) Taxi Driver
198 (x) Silence Of The Lambs
199 ( ) The Exorcist
200 ( ) If Lucy Fell
201 ( ) Lady Jane
201 ( ) When Harry met Sally
202 (x) Me, Myself & Irene
203 ( ) Kung Fu Hustle
204 (/) Sin City
205 (x) Labyrinth
206 ( ) Much Ado About Nothing
207 ( ) The Cowboy Way
208 ( ) Paulie
209 (x) Blazing Saddles
210 ( ) Galaxy Quest
211 ( ) Guildenstern and Rosencrantz are Dead
212 ( ) Citizen Kane
213 ( ) You Can Count on Me
214 (x) Young Frankenstein
215 (x) Raiders of the Lost Ark
216 ( ) Starman
217 (/) St. Elmos Fire
218 (x) Coyote Ugly
219 ( ) The Other Sister
220 ( ) Rainman
221 ( ) Little Shop of Horrors
222 ( ) Chasing Amy
223 ( ) House of Sand and Fog
224 ( ) Mildred Pierce
225 ( ) The Big Lebowski
226 ( ) Last House on the Left
227 ( ) Ichi the Killer
228 (x) Girl, Interrupted
229 ( ) Organ
230 ( ) Mordrum
231 (/) Clerks
232 ( ) Ghost World
233 (x) Willy Wonka & the Chocolate Factory
234 ( ) South Park: Bigger, Longer, & Uncut
235 (x) The Princess Bride
236 ( ) Run Lola Run
237 (x) Liar Liar
238 (x) The Forgotten
239 ( ) Sense & Sensibility
240 ( ) Little Women
241 ( ) Wings of Desire
242 ( ) The Conversation
243 ( ) True Romance
244 ( ) Waiting for Guffman
245 ( ) waydowntown
246 ( ) Once Upon a Time in the West
247 ( ) Once Upon a Time in America
248 ( ) Crimes and Misdemeanors
249 ( ) Contempt
250 (x) The Pokémon Movie
251 (x) Kill Bill, Vol. 1
252 ( ) Kill Bill, Vol. 2
253 ( ) Lolita
254 ( ) Full Metal Jacket
255 ( ) Animal House
256 ( ) igby goes down
257 (/) dangerous lives of altar boys
258 (x) top gun
259 (/) dazed and confused
300 ( ) wet hot american summer
301 ( ) dr. strangelove
302 ( ) fear and loathing in las vegas
303 ( ) life aquatic with steve zissu
304 (x) The Emperor's New Groove
305 ( ) Wimbledon
306 ( ) National Treasure
307 (/) Bridget Jones's Diary
308 ( ) Bridget Jones's Diary #2
309 (x) Ferris Bueller's Day Off
310 (x) American Beauty
311 (x) Zoolander
312 (x) Arsenic and Old Lace
313 (x) Garden State
314 (/) Requiem for a Dream
315 ( ) Memento

A- Age you got your first real kiss: 11
B- Band listening to right now: Acceptance
C- Crush: Michael
D- Dad's name: Edward
E- Easiest person to talk to: Um...no one really
F- Favorite Bands at the Moment: Fall Out Boy, Pink Floyd,
G- Gummy worms or bears? Bears
H- Hometown: Nowhere....
I- Instruments: attempted the violin
J- Junior High School: Commack Middle School and Plainview Old Bethpage Middle
K- Kids: None at the moment
L- Longest car ride: Drove to Maine
M- Mother's name: Gina
N- Nicknames: Crys
O- One wish: People accepted differences
P- Phobia(s):Heights...being alone
Q- Quote: "It makes you wish you were always in danger" Only like 2 people will understand this one
R- Reason to smile: I am loved.
S- Song you last sang: The hustle with Laura
T- Time you woke up today: 11:42
U- Unknown facts about me: It's easy to make me smile
V- Vegetables that you love: Most of em
W- Worst habit(s): nail biting, Cutting and making people feel bad
X- X-rays you've had: Stomach xray for my ulcer
Y- Yummy food: Pancakes
Z- Zodiac sign: Leo

[x]I think I'm really attractive.
[ ] I prefer winter over summer.
[x] I am a geek.
[ ] I am a shopaholic.
[x] I am reasonably intelligent.
[x] I am attracted to girls.
[x] I am attracted to boys.
[x] I like British accents.
[ ] I smoke regularly.
[ ] I smoke socially.
[ ] I drink socially.
[ ] I drink regularly.
[ ] I get drunk easily.
[ ] I do drug(s)
[/] I've done drugs
[ ] I will never date a bad kisser.
[x] I've lied to avoid kissing them again.
[ ] I brush my hair at least 50 times a night.
[ ] I am religious.
[x] I am not religious but have morals
[x] I'm religious, depending on how you look at it.
[ ] I lie frequently.
[x] I am impulsive.
[x] I am hardworking.
[X] I loved Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind
[ ] She's All That is one of my favourite movies.
[ ] I am good at History.
[ ] I speak more than two languages.
[x] I enjoy taking pictures.
[x] I like spending money on myself.
[/] I like spending money on others.
[ ] I have a regular income.
[ ] I earn money on a job-by-job basis.
[ ] I pay my own bills.
[x] I rely on my parents for money.
[x] I can cook (something).
[ ] I enjoy cleaning.
[ ] Tidiness is a must in my life.
[ ] I like clutter.
[ ] My idea of good music is Britney Spears.
[x] I am fashion-conscious.
[x] I have good taste.
[x] People tell me I have good taste.
[ ] I am told I have yet to fulfill my potential.
[x] I am good at sports.
[x] I am good at certain sports.
[ ] I couldn't do sports to save my life.
[x] I am creative.
[x] I am extremely artistically inclined.
[x] I want to be an artist when I grow up.
[ ] I want to be an engineer when I grow up.
[x] I eat when I'm upset.
[ ] I cannot adapt easily to change.
[ ] I am interested in politics.
[x] I have shoplifted
[x] I download MP3s.
[x] I have done underage drinking.
[ ] I have gone underage clubbing.
[x] I can dance reasonably well.
[ ] I can dance extremely well.
[ ] I dance like a cardboard gorilla.
[x] I can sing. There are people a lot better, but I still can sing.
[ ] I sing like someone stepped on my foot.
[ ] I can swim.
[x] I enjoy surveys.
[x] I enjoy surveys when I'm bored.
[x] I keep a journal.
[ ] My teachers don't like me
[x] I enjoy controversy.
[x] I can be a bitch/bastard.
[x] I have a thing for bad boys/girls.
[ ] I have tattoos.
[ ] I've been in a nudist colony
[ ] I'm not sure if I want to have children.
[ ] I'm not sure if I'll get married.
[x] I know who I will marry.
[x] Someone has a crush on me.
[x] I am interesting.
[x] I am a good liar.
[x] People enjoy talking to me.
[x] I annoy people from time to time.
[ ] I am a born leader.
[ ] I am a born leader but shouldn't lead.
[ ] I've snuck out of the house.
[ ] I enjoy belching.
[ ] I have a foot fetish.
[ ] I have a shoe fetish.
[ ] I watch Sex And The City.
[ ] I don't think Sarah Jessica Parker is pretty.
[ ] I want to be J Lo.
[ ] I cut myself.
[x] I have cut myself.
[x] I hate people who pretend to be suicidal.
[ ] I hate popular people.
[ ] I think cheerleading is a sport.
[x] I am photogenic.
[ ] I live in Chucks.
[x] I think graffiti is art.
[ ] I have dated a criminal
[x] I have been cheated on.
[x] I have cheated on someone.
[x] I have a temper.
[x] I like playgrounds.
[x] I dance in the rain.
[ ] I am obsessed with Shakespeare.
[x] I have tanlines.
[ ] My favourite color is pink.
[x] My favourite color is black.
[x] I would classify myself as emo.
[x] I am musically inclined.
[x] I like listening to music.
[x] I like music-blasting cars.
[x] Thongs are comfortable.
[x] I like flip-flops.
[x] I know what monogamy is.
[x] ... and I believe in it.
[ ] I want to be a social worker when I grow up.
[x] I have (a) sibling[s].
[x] My siblings annoy me
[x] I think South Park is funny.
[x] I prefer Google
[x] I can sit Indian Style
[x] I have a cat
[ ] I plan on having more.
[x] I read a lot.
[x] I've cheated on a test(quiz).
[x] I've let someone cheat off of me on a test

Have you ever...
[ ] been drunk
[x] smoked pot.
[x] kissed someone.
[x] rode in a taxi.
[x] been dumped.
[x] shoplifted.
[ ] been fired.
[x] been in a fist fight.
[x] broken a bone
[ ] got hit by a car.
[ ] snuck out of your parent's house.
[ ] been arrested.
[x] gone in a mosh pit.
[x] stolen something from your school.
[ ] celebrated new years in times square.
[ ] went on a blind date.
[x] lied to a friend
[x] had a crush on a teacher
[ ] celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans.
[ ] been to europe.
[x] skipped school.
[ ] thrown up from drinking.
[ ] lost your sibling.
[x] played 'clue'
[x] had a sleepover.
[x] went ice skating.
[ ] had your tonsils out.
[ ] had a car
[ ] totalled a car

DO YOU ...
[ ] feel loved.
[x] feel lonely.
[ ] feel happy.
[x] hate yourself.
[x] think you're attractive.
[ ] have a dog.
[x] have your own room.
[ ] listen to Hawaiian Music
[ ] listen to underground hip hop
[ ] listen to rap
[x] listen to rock.
[ ] listen to country.
[x] listen to reggae.
[x] listen to techno.
[x] have hobbies
[x] have more than 1 best friend.
[/] get good grades
[ ] play an instrument.
[ ] have slippers
[ ] wear boxers
[x] wear black eyeliner
[x] like the color blue.
[x] like the color pink.
[x] like to read.
[x] like to write.
[x] have long hair
[ ] have short hair.
[x] have a cell phone.
[ ] have a laptop.
[ ] have a pager.

ARE YOU ...
[ ] ugly.
[x] pretty.
[ ] okay.
[ ] Handsome.
[x] bored.
[ ] happy.
[ ] bilingual.
[ ] Hawaiian.
[ ] Samoan.
[ ] Filipino.
[ ] Korean.
[ ] British.
[ ] Swiss
[ ] Hungarian
[x] white.
[ ] black.
[ ] mexican.
[ ] asian.
[ ] short.
[x] tall.
[x] realistic.
[ ] sick.
[ ] mad.
[x] lazy.
[ ] looking.
[x] not looking.
[ ] talking to someone.
[ ] IMing someone.
[ ] scared to die
[ ] horny.
[x] tired.
[x] sleepy
[x] annoyed.
[ ] hungry.
[x] thirsty.
[ ] on the phone.
[ ] in your room.
[ ] drinking something.
[ ] eating something.
[ ] in your pjs.
[ ] ticklish.
[x] listening to music.

Current Mood: Unsatisfied
Current Music: Acceptance

Randomly pick 20 of your lj friends before reading under the cut.

1)heroxofxthexday
2)amfora
3)i_violaceous
4)failedsalvation
5)plasticplaymate
6)rissaria2489
7)staryniteeyez
8)the_spare_jew
9)thislullaby____
10)traptintheflame
11)wewereinfinite6
12) xforeverxagainx
13)xinfestation
14)xlawrah
15)wishinonadream
16)sullenmadness
17)je_deteste_li
18) chastasheen
19) random_lj112
20)xfreshman_angst
( The fun part :-) )

So...Saturday was simply amazing. Because I got to spend the day with Michael. Who I love immense amounts. And I learned a lot of things about him...hehe...All I think about is sore hips now...but only he gets that...so yeah...we played 20 questions and I won both times. And he bought me Phantom Of The Opera, the movie and Chicago the soundtrack...we watched Phantom and Pirates of course...Mm..Johnny Depp...

I love my boyum...this weekend should be interesting ;-)

Gr! It seems like everything is so difficult because everyone is making everything so much harder than it has to be. Stock is putting our drama class on an unrealistic schedule and demanding so much from a bunch of sophomores....and grr its so difficult.
And i hate this
and i miss Mike
and im so happy tomorrow is Friday





Kill Me

Well, it's over and I'm left alone...but it's not so bad I suppose. We did have an amazing conversation last night....</3>you</i>

HAVE YOU EVER
peed your pants?: When I was little
cheated on someone?: Yes
fallen off the bed?: While sleeping, when I was little. While doing something else, yes.
had plastic surgery?: No
broke someone's heart?: I suppose thats open to interpretation
had your heart broken?: Yeah
had a dream come true?: Yeah
done something you regret?: Who hasn't?
cheated on a test?: Yeah
been raped?: Let's not go there....
broken a body part?: Yep

CURRENTLY
wearing - Terry cloth pants, baggy t-shirt, but I am wearing lacey underwear...
listening to – Aladdin, just to boost my coolness
chewing – Nothing
feeling – Tired, bored and horny.
reading - This quiz...
located – My bed.
chatting with – I was talking to Stevie, but he went to play video games, and Melissa is on the phone
watching – ...this quiz
should be – Doing nothing actually.

DO YOU
brush your teeth?: Always in the morning, I usually forget at night
like anybody?: Mikey
have any piercings?: Yep, but I've been lazy with them, so they are kind of closed up
drive?: Nah
believe in Santa Claus?: Nope
ever get off the computer?: Yep


FRIENDS
do you belong to a crew?: Not really, I'm scattered everywhere.
do you consider yourself popular?: Um no.
do you trust your friends?: Not as of recently.
are you a good friend?: Also open to interpretation.
can you keep a secret?: Yup.


LAST PERSON YOU
hugged - Um...Kevin
gave EPROPS – Probably Julie.
IMed – Melissa.
talked to on the phone – Mikey.
yelled at - My mom.
tripped – Damn, I'll get right on that.
turned down – ?.

PERSONAL
what do you want to be when you grow up? – Alive and happy
what was the worst day of your life? – Um...I have no idea.
what is your most embarrassing story? – I don't recall.
what has been the best day of your life? – My one month "anniversary" where I danced in the snow with all my friends, and dancing in the rain in the city with Jimmy(Laura and my dad were there too, but they weren't dancing).
what comes first in your life? – Michael
do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend/? - Not anymore.
if you had an extra set of eyes were would you put them?:Um...I have no idea
what do you usually think about before you go to bed?: Michael, just cause I always go to sleep right after we get off the phone.

FAVORITE
movie: Dirty Dancing
group: Um..lately I've been listening to Head Automatica.
store: target.
relative: I hate all of them.
sport: Volleyball
vacation Spot: Anywhere but here.
ice cream flavor: Hmm...
fruit: MMM FRUIT, COOKIE....
candy: Pop rocks for a few different reasons.
holiday: Halloween, 4th of July.
day of the Week: Friday.
color: Black.
magazine: I don't read magazines.
name for a girl: .
name for a boy: .

DO YOU
like to give hugs – Yay!.
like to walk in the rain? – Warm rain, not cold rain.
sleep with or without clothes on? Depends.
prefer black or blue pens?: black.
dress up on halloween? - Yay!.
have a job? – Nope
like to travel? - Not with the family.
sleep on your side, tummy or back? – side.
think you're attractive? – Not usually.
want to marry? - Yes.
have a goldfish? - Nope.
ever have the falling dream? – No.
have stuffed animals? - In a huge ass bag on the other side of the basement.
go on vacation?: Nope

OPINIONS
abortion: Yes
bill clinton: He was cool
eating Disorders: Story of my life.
suicide: An escape.
summer: Warm!
tattoos: Hell Yes.
piercing: Everywhere.
make-up: Lightly.
guys: I love my boyum.
girls: Yay!

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls u back when you hang up on him, who will stay awake just to watch you sleep, wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who thinks your just as pretty without makeup, one who's constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have you, the one who turns to his friends and says.... thats her

I have a new livejournal which is going to be privater.Well, thats the plan anyways...so if you want to be my friend, post a comment there..

Livejournal.com/~SlitAngelWings

Current Mood: calm

Show me how you do that trick
The one that makes me scream she said
The one that makes me laugh she said
And threw her arms around my neck

Show me how you do it
And I promise you
I promise that
I’ll run away with you
I’ll run away with you

Spinning on that dizzy edge
I kissed her face and kissed her neck
And dreamed of all the different ways I had
To make her glow
Why are you so far away? she said
Why won’t you ever know that I’m in love with you
That I’m in love with you

You
Soft and only
You
Lost and lonely
You
Strange as angels
Dancing in the deepest oceans
Twisting in the water
You’re just like a dream


You
Soft and only
You
Lost and lonely
You
Just like heaven

Well, today was interesting. A pretty decent day otherthan being fucking tired...I passed out in Dugan's class. I went walking with Josh which was really nice, we went to the park and I felt so carefree and great...and then I went to the anti bias conference which was amazing too....Now i'm just waiting for Mikey to become alive again....cause god knows where he is.

My schedule this week:
Tuesday:9th period recycling meeting
Wednesday:9th period Bio, 10th period Photo
Thursday:9th period Writer's Cafe, 10th period Strides, Relay Captain meeting and Fashion Show Dress Rehearsal at the same time
Friday:Fashion Show
Saturday:Horseability orientation at 10:30, Mikey maybe? Fashion Show?
Sunday:Filming with Larissa, Nick and Faye at 4


I'm like a shooting star

CriesBlackTears: thinking about Michael
yBnOrMaL90: good thing?
CriesBlackTears: yes
CriesBlackTears: while i was crying in my basement, i was listening to Shine On You Crazy Diamond and I remember talking to him last night when he went "You hear that, shine on"
CriesBlackTears: and i couldn't do it
yBnOrMaL90: *lets out fit of awwws* see, thats what i was saying. he loves you crys. so much
CriesBlackTears: and I love him
------------------
Rebelette3: Can I ask you a question about your Mike?
CriesBlackTears: Go right ahead.
Rebelette3: Do you want to be with him forever?
CriesBlackTears: Yes, Yes I Do.
Rebelette3: When you think about your future, you plan everything to make sure he would be part of it?
Rebelette3: I mean long term
CriesBlackTears: Yeah, we've even discussed a lot of it.


Hmmm...I love my boyum.

So Cyrus Lived Forever...

I haven't written in a while, but I've noticed that in Plainview a lot of death has been happening, and it makes you realize how uninvincable you really are. Donna Walde-Kristen Waldes mother recently died....Some senior in our school's father died a few days ago...and then there was this kid in Syosset who died in his sleep....
And it's a horrible thing to see and I really can't say anything...I've never felt so vulnerable

Gravedigger by Dave Matthews Band

Cyrus Jones 1810 to 1913
Made his great granchildren believe
You could live to a hundred and three
A hundred and three is forever when you're just a little kid
So Cyrus Jones lived forever

Gravedigger
When you dig my grave
Could you make it shallow
So that I can feel the rain
Gravedigger

Muriel Stonewall
1903 to 1954
She lost both of her babies in the second great war
Now you should never have to watch
Your only children lowered in the ground
I mean you should never have to bury your own babies

Gravedigger
When you dig my grave
Could you make it shallow
So that I can feel the rain
Gravedigger

Ring around the rosey
Pocket full of posey
Ashes to ashes
We all fall down

Gravedigger
When you dig my grave
Could you make it shallow
So that I can feel the rain
Gravedigger

Little Mikey Carson 67 to 75
He rode his
Bike like the devil until the day he died
When he grows up he wants to be Mr. Vertigo on the flying trapeze
Ohhh, 1940 to 1992

Gravedigger
When you dig my grave
Could you make it shallow
So that I can feel the rain

Gravedigger
When you dig my grave
Could you make it shallow
So that I can feel the rain
Feel the rain
I can feel the rain
Gravedigger

Why does this feel like it should be wrong when really it feels so right? When I've waited so long for this and now I'm not sure how to react..what to do. And I see this changing everything, our entire relationship and yet, maybe it won't. Maybe the priority will just be changed. Or maybe it'll just fade in a few days. And you asked me today if I considered what I do cheating and I rattled off my ideas to you, but maybe you're right. Maybe this is all wrong and I should be condemned. I don't deserve him. But then again, I guess I don't deserve most things.



There's beauty in the breakdown.